Yeah, I just want to complain a little about what's going on with me.
Lately my psychosis has been kicking up. I've been having a lot more hallucinations and paranoid delusions than usual.
There are people who live in the walls of my house and they watch everything I do. I'm not sure that they're quite human, since they have really thin, flexible bodies that let them squeeze a bunch of them into the small space inside a wall, and they're dark and translucent. They're also covered with eyes and mouths so they can see everything and tell me lots of things at once. I don't know how many there are, just that they're crammed into every wall in my house. Somehow they follow me to other places too. I'm not sure if they have secret passages or portals or if they just have communication devices planted in my head but they talk to me even when I'm not home. They know everything but they only tell me what they want me to know. Usually it's things like who's watching me, who's plotting against me, which water fountain is poisoned, where's safe or unsafe to go, etc. They tell me how to keep myself safe by avoiding unsafe places. I hate them because they're scary and annoying but at the same time I feel like I have to listen to them and be grateful to them for protecting me. They've been around for a while, I don't know how long.
I keep seeing and hearing other things too and it's getting really annoying. Sometimes it's scary but usually just annoying.
I have an appointment with the psychiatrist next month and I'll tell him what's been going on. An increase of my meds might be in order.
I've also been having almost nonstop migraines for days on end. Headaches and migraines are a nearly daily occurrence for me anyway but usually I don't have to take medicine for it more than once in a day. Lately I've been having to take the maximum number of doses to get any peace.
One of my delusions I've been having is that my migraines are being caused by mind-reading devices planted in my head by the government. I don't know how or why they would do that, I just know they want to spy on me.
The more sensible part of me suspects that the migraines have to do with my scoliosis, like they usually do. A bone in my neck sometimes slides and pinches a nerve, causing killer headaches.
Speaking of scoliosis, I have a couple of ribs out of place. This is also a regular occurrence. But I can't see my chiropractor to get them fixed because I'm behind on my bill. They won't make me another appointment until I pay off some of it and I might not be able to for a couple more weeks. The ribs will go back into place on their own eventually but in the meantime they'll hurt a lot and be very inconvenient.
So those are my complaints. I'm coping with the psychosis with a couple of memes I made up, Schizoaffective Seahorse and Delusional Dormouse. I'm coping with the pain with medicine and tea. I know it will get better eventually, I just want to vent a little.